Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Starting Fresh

First of all, Happy New Year everyone! I know that most people look at every new year to be a fresh start on their life and make all these resolutions and because I feel so lighthearted right now I will follow along with this and not be antagonistic. I've already been working on this for at least two months now, but I've been trying to be more outgoing and social outside of my school life. For my only resolution I plan to try to get myself out there and make new friends and solidify some previous relationships. For most people this may seem  kinda dumb because it's not that hard to talk to people... right? Well, I have a problem and recently one of my friends and I went skiing and as I was driving her home we got to talking about stuff concerning friends and hanging out. You see, I'm the kind of person that has no problem being alone and spending my time with out being dependent on another person but because of the whole holiday season I've begun to realize that I feel empty. I don't know how else to explain it but I always hear about my friends hanging out and having so much fun over weekends and breaks and all I have to report is that I did in fact get my homework done and watched a few movies. On the rare occasion I'll have a decent story to tell about my family or something I've personally done by myself that I was proud of like finishing a huge book or learning about some historical event that I never learned about before. And as the weeks of this school year go by I feel more and more unsatisfied with this routine. To give you guys a bit of a ratio about how social I am outside of school its something around five hours of hanging out with a friend to roughly two to three months.
I know how ridiculous that seems to some people that can't go a weekend without seeing their friend but before this year I was perfectly fine with staying at home every weekend and watching movies, reading books, visiting with family, or just listening to music but as time progresses I find myself wishing that I was with my friends. But I don't really know how to solve that problem because I'm too much of a chicken to actually create a plan to hang out with someone and am too lazy (basically) to follow it through. But as I was talking more while driving and trying to explain just the reason I have such a problem with this to my friend she helped me understand how to possibly figure this out before I find myself all alone in a couple years and not be able to socialize normally. So I hope you guys can solve your problems that you wish to or make habits that you believe will improve you as a person. Good luck and I'll try to keep true to my resolution and make an effort to get out there more while it's still easy. Again, Happy New Year!

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